hey hey hey =P

Tiring day~~~

practical..

ouh..my fourth semester had passed on..ahuhuu~~
n im goin 2 b on my way to my practical this 12th November n wish me luck =P
hehee~~

PuNcHaK~~

nothing much really..study as usuall..classes cramm..dances, all that stuff..makes me very, very tired..but fun =P
this week, still so-so..struggling with my subjects..so hope for the best =P buhbye~~

semester with the stars!!

hahaa..my first week in uitm..n in semester 4 rite now!! senior senior..hahaa~~
neway..what sucks is that i started off my new semester with flu, cough, fever, n stomach ache..shite!! really sucks being unwell..it makes u can't do anything rite..anyway, my class, still da same..same faces..n decreasing in numbers..few of my classmates dismissal..sad, miss them much..but life must go on..hope for the best for them, life has it's own path for everybody..am i rite??
so, classess are so pretty much started off as introductory..well, why it is called the semester with the stars?? 3 local known stars teach in my class, 1stly, pn zizi zulkafli in greek theaterical history, 2ndly, en. hamzah tahir in mime, then last but not least cik syafinaz as my vocal lecturer..huhuu..all of these lecturers are strict..n i'm quite scared..despite getting a lil bit exited studyin from them =P
my collage?? sucks more..i've got no room..n i have to squat at my friend's room for the meantime..n it's all my fault..not making the clearance last semester..should put that in mind =P
okokok..enough blabbering..till next tyme =P me?? i'm me, nobody else..just me~~

oh me..oh my..

when i kept thinking..
my head felt like it wanna burst,
it felt like this at first, but then..
it just calm down n went..

when i kept thinking..
my head begins to spin,
i know it's not thin..
but it's just like a garbage bin..

when i kept thinking..
i'll start blabbering,
n when it started to ring,
i'll finish it off with a ding..

but i'm just me..
a late teenager..finding his way..
in this world, n must learn how to sway..
so that i'll be able to portray,
my life my own way..

blah blah blah..

best?? being the best?? how bout beating the rest?? goal..who's goal?? what's goal?? is it two poles, with a net stretching between them?? this things kept me thinking bout this weekend..me, myself, n i..what am i exactly to be sure?? am i the one to follow my parents dream?? my friends ideas?? my heart's desires?? who, who am i suppose to follow?? too many questions in my thick head..n i can't even figure it out, sort it out for my own good, am i a good-for-nothing kinda person?? am i??
well..what i do exactly know is that i am me, i have a loving family, great friends, n i'm gonna be in the next semester this Sunday..as a senior in my university..
n what exactly does my university teach me?? how to be an actor?? how to pick jobs?? how to tackle the lecturers heart?? how to get good scores?? hurm..what i think this institution of higher learning is teaching me about how to be more human..how to be flexible..how to communicate..how to nurture my skills in any way..
i'm still attach to the song "terbaik untukmu" by Tangga band..i don't know y..that's me, when a song comes into my life..i'm dragged by it's melody n lyrics..oh my..oh me~~

terbaik untukmu..(the best for u..)

this song..has taken my heart away..it's kinda like me..in my situation..but i don't know bout her's..

Terbaik Untukmu - Tangga

Aku sadar kalau kini (I realize that if now)
Kita sudah smakin menjauh (we are far apart)
Sempat aku berfikir ini (I come to think of it)
Kau yg menginginkannya (it's u that wanting to)
Lepas dari pelukku (part ways from me)

oh kini aku sedari (oh now i realise)
ini salahku (this is my fault)
tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali (I don't want to be late n regret about it)

maafkanlah bila ku selalu (forgive me when i always)
membuatmu marah dan benci padaku (make u mad n despise me)
ku lakukan itu semua (I've done it all)
hanya untuk buatmu bahagia (only to make yourself happy)

mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami (maybe i just cannot understand)
bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku (how to show my hearts intent)
aku cuma ingin jadi terbaik untukmu (i only want to be the best for u)

ku ingin terbaik untukmu.. (I'm wanting the best for u..)

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini.. (I want u to stil be here..)
bersamaku.. (with me..)
Jangan pergi (don't go)
Berikan satu kesempatan (give me a chance)
Untuk ku membuktikan (for me to prove)
sesungguhnya cintaku (how deep is my love)

oh my..that's deep..uuuu..i'm stil a hopeless romantic =P

it's all about the heart..

how can u love?? if u love somebody, does he/she love u back?? does he/she throws the love ball back at u?? as the matter of fact, love is a very complicated subject of matter..the heart matter..
first n foremost, do u love he/she?? n if u love he/she, does he/she love u back?? interactions between two souls n hearts can lead to many complications..
then the urges, from ur heart, ur passion, ur desire, ur needs..it all contribute into complicating everything there is to complicate in every single relationship between human beings..
as an example..i have a friend..who has a big crush..on a girl..but she doesn't love him back..he tried all the possible way to..but she just..don't have the heart for him..
love can be delightful, can be devouring, can be cruel, can be anything of everything in the world..just keep in mind that without love..there is no world to live in..

do u know??

well..what exactly do u know about anything?? i mean..do u know what u r?? do u know what is happening around u?? perhaps u know certain things that's happening in your life..but frankly speaking, u actually don't know everything that's happening around u..and u tend to forget that matter, n act like u know exactly anything about everything!!
sometimes, people tend to make believe that they know bout everything, because that is, in human nature, to be scared about somethings that u don't know..and apparently, me, myself, still have loads of stuff that i don't know about the world..n i tend to learn something that caught my attention..n just ignore the rest..that is me..but sometimes, particular things happen n eventually, it make u realize that u have to know something that u ignored, because it's very important to u, or it could be very useful to u..more or less..
but what is the most important thing of all is that we, as human beings, should start something from the basics, the core of things, the bottom as u may say..and work our way up to the top..so that we can know the flow of things n improve our manner as human beings, don't u agree??
as the matter of fact, we, human beings, tend to take things for granted rather than be grateful of what we are n who we become..